King of Retards

I AM SO FUCKING DUMB. 
GOD I HATE MYSELF RIGHT NOW. 
SHIT SHIT FUCKING SHIT.

So, I was busy ALL morning at work and didn't have time to write a lick until about noon.  I was doing my plan for elementary school which took a hell of a lot longer than I thought it would (Prepositions II - between, across from, in front of, behind).  Making your own map is a pain.  But I have a nice pretty one that I can use from now on ready to go.  And then Imai-sensei gave me a stack of exams to mark... all 5 classes... but only 3 questions and 150 papers took me... mmm.. fifteen minutes.  Maybe.  No big deal.  Then exams were done for the day, lunch rolled around.  They didn't tell me there was no lunch and I only figured it out when everyone left.  They did the same last time but I didn't remember.  Didn't matter, they let me go and I thought all was well.

It was cold today and threatening to rain but didn't.  I went by the post office and retrieved my forgotten umbrella and got on the train.  I missed about every fucking connection on the way to Chiba Minato after getting on the Joban line at Kashiwa.  Shit.  You have switch at Shin-Matsudo for the Masuashino line and I went up the wrong side so I had to wait... then you switch to the Keiyo line at Minami-Funabashi and then the one I was on decided to terminate in the middle and then I had to wait again after realizing my train wasn't going to be moving anytime soon (nor in the right direction)... then I got to Chiba Minato fianlly and got to the immigration office and then got my number, got my payment stamp and then REALIZED I LEFT MY FUCKING PASSPORT AT HOME.  UAAAAAAFLKAJSDASLDJF.  I think I scared the Aussie (I think -- other white person anyway) by saying "SHIT!" really loudly and then stormed out.  I am still fucking pissed off.  I didn't even remember my phone today I couldn't spam everyone and their second cousin with ranty mails.  There goes fucking 3 hours of my life and 1200 yen for nothing.

Sent an email to Tatsuya saying I am a huge loser instead of just taking initiative and cancel my afternoon tomorrow and go again.  Fuck.  At least I have until the 9th of July to go... But fuck, if he had just let me go at the beginning of the month when I wanted to, I wouldn't have fucking forgotten my passport, I'm sure.  In the end, I still have to take another afternoon off.  I could have had a nice relaxing half-day today (becuase they would have sent me home anyway) but nuuuuuuuuuuuuu.  FUCK YOU GODDAMN WORK.

I'm calm now.  Can't change what happened.  Tatsuya will just have to suck it up and I'll have to go another day.  One thing that didn't suck today was that I got a call from Mori-san at Cool Japan and they still want me to come for an interview.  But it's in Roppongi and he didn't say what time.  He will call back but I already told them I can't come until 7 at the earliest so that's probably why he wants to talk to me personally.